A Better Son / Daughter

Every now and then a song is just perfect, and it slaps you in the face.
A Better Son / Daughter by Rilo Kiley is that song today. These lyrics… Damn.

Sometimes in the morning i am petrified and can’t move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs i know i can’t breathe
And hope someone will save me this time
And your mother’s still callin’ you insane and high
Swearin’ it’s different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that God never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
Crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you loved things just because
Like the sick and the dying

And sometimes when you’re on you’re really fucking on
And your friends they sing along and they love you
But the lows are so extreme that the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you’ll fight and you’ll make it through
You’ll fake it if you have to
And you’ll show up for work with a smile
You’ll be be better and you’ll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter
Or son and a real good friend
And you’ll be awake, you’ll be alert
You’ll be positive though it hurts
And you’ll laugh and embrace all your friends
You’ll be a real good listener
You’ll be honest you’ll be brave
You’ll be handsome you’ll be beautiful
You’ll be happy

Your ship may be coming in
You’re weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
And your ship may be coming in
You’re weak but not giving in
And you’ll fight it you’ll go out fighting all of ’em…
Rilo Kiley

Update: My mother died just a few months after I posted this, on August 12, 2012.